Just a while ago, my friends showed me a Tumblr site that really caught my attention. The tumblr site is called fuckyeahhsexyasians.tumblr.com You guys heard of it? Yeah? And for about ten minutes, I was scrolling through and just looking at all these photos of these asian people, sending in and voting on who’s the sexiest and all that jazz and all I thought in my head was WHAT. THE. FUCK? Is this shit serious? Sexy asians send in their pictures and they vote who’s the sexiest of the month like a fuckin’ calendar?! Again, 

WHAT. THE. FUCKITY. FUCK? 

So, am I going to rant about it right now? FUCK YEAH! And will this be a long ass post?! FUUUUCK YES. 

First off, how the FUCK are you going to make a Tumblr like that, whoever is the creator of that tumblr?! Okay, sure. You’re probably some hormonal sex-driven kid who wants to see sexy pictures of people or you’re some really conceited child who wants to find other friends who are as conceited as you. Like, really? And you must be asian because I don’t think (haven’t checked yet) there are other tumblr sites stating ‘fuck yeah sexy white people’ or ‘fuck yeah sexy mexicans’ or any of that shit. And if there is, this goes out to you, too. 
Like, what the fuck are you trying to prove by doing that? Is that your way of getting back at the jokes thrown your way when you’re a child?! HONESTLY?! You’re doing NO ONE a favor by continuing that except boosting up the conceited level of probably every “sexy” asian out there and discreetly showing off to the world that it’s an epic win if they look the way they do in those pictures. Because, honestly, they all look almost THE SAME. 

GIRLS: their hair is long as fuck and curled or straightened or “beehive” or cut short at an A-line, eyeliner with that little shit at the end of their already chinky eyes, with mascara  to “enhance” their eyelashes, and their either wearing glasses with no fucking lens, tongue sticking out, in a fucking bathroom, looking like they wanna be a fucking model with a mirror picture. And they have to have that fucking pose where they tilt it to the side so you get a “side view” of not only their butts, but their boobs. 
GUYS: They have to do that ugly ass fucking look with their eyes like the smoulder from Tangled, spiky ass fucking hair, piercings, a nice ass fucking camera, a hat, and ABS. YOU HAVE TO HAVE ABS.

There you go, to people who have not seen the site yet. I have just summed up their whole point to the site. And honestly? Is this really how you want society to see you? How you want society to view us asians? You know what I think?!

You see that girl right there in the middle with the jacket and the jeans? She looks NOTHING like the girls around her, does she? She has long hair though. Straight and just how it is. And you know what? She barely dresses like a regular girl. She wears combat boots because she loves them. She puts her hair in a bun on the top of her head at any given moment and time. She barely wears makeup and she isn’t super skinny. You know what I think? I think she’s gorgeous. 

It’s sickening to see how people would go out of their way to look like something out of a magazine, basking in the fact that compliments are thrown around them to and fro and criticizing the world when they aren’t up to their level or over their level. It’s sickening to believe that we’re so deemed on the way we are viewed rather than how we are known. It’s sickening to know that us asians used to be known as the bad drivers, the smart ones, the hard-workers with the home languages still stuck on our tongue from our native land, but are now known as the “pretty” people with the long hair and the makeup and the body where a majority of our asian generation could barely say a word in their own language.
What’s even harder to believe is that when you go to that site, there are a LOT of people sending in their pictures. So, there are a LOT of “sexy” asians. But I truly believe that not even HALF the population of Asians would ever deem themselves worthy of that sight, believing they are too ugly for it. And sites like that agree, going as far as to denying a picture of someone who doesn’t fit their quality. It’s almost like those top model auditions, right? Or like in Sydney White, when they took out any girl who didn’t look anything like them or found something wrong with them they had to change about themselves in order to be like them. Just plain fuckin’ stupid. 

 Well, guess what? This is a picture of me (please ignore Mitch on the right and Terry in the back). This is who I am, and I am not afraid to admit it. I have a big filipino nose. My cheeks are droopy, not high boned like many. My face is round. I was made fun of for a good amount of time because I had serious acne problems all across my face since the fifth grade. My skin is either too dark or too scarred. My teeth aren’t as straight or as white as others. My hair isn’t super long and always messed up. I have always had bags under my eyes and now, my face is left with scars from my pimple stages. I don’t have the body of a model, my arms bulky and my stomach isn’t so flat, because i have a small cushion down there. I just barely started wearing mascara, fearing that I wasn’t good enough for makeup, for the girl world. This is me. And throughout my whole life, I have not believed I was even close to being sexy. I didn’t even think I was close to being pretty. I avoided any questions that had to do who was the sexiest in the room or the rating game because it was easy to see where I would categorize under. And the reason why i’m even posting this rant? You’re probably going to say it’s because i’m jealous. FUCK YES I’M JEALOUS. WTF?! WHO WOULDN’T BE?!

And I know about 80% of girls feel the same exact way as I do, asian or not. Because society is portraying us that way. And this site, this fuckyeahhsexyasians tumblr site, is just boosting up the whole way society should see us. I had a boyfriend for about 4 years and he wasn’t the hottest guy in the book, but to me, he was handsome. To me, I fell in love with his personality and his smile and his charm. To me, his looks were the way his smile would show his dimple, or the way his arm would flex when he held me tightly or the laughter that rang into my ear. To me, that’s what’s beautiful. And the fuck’s up with everyone using sexy now? What happened to Beautiful, Gorgeous, Stunning, Admirable? What happened to just falling in love with the way they said your name or the sound of their voice or the shine in their eyes or their personality? 

So, here is the end of my rant and my last words to this site: FUCK YOU. EVERYONE IS FUCKING BEAUTIFUL. 

And my last words to EVERY FUCKING GIRL/WOMAN/HUMAN out there: THROW YOUR MIDDLE FINGERS UP AND SAY FUCK IT. EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL. FUCK SOCIETY. FUCK APPEARANCE. FUCK THE WORLD. YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL. LOVE YOURSELF AND LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. Because everyone is beautiful. And will always be beautiful. And this is what society needs to be teaching the children of the future.

Hello, world. Today, I feel am beautiful. 

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